April 29, 2015 7:08 pm




April 29, 2015



Today I was out and about riding my bike.  I was distracted and self-absorbed with a relationship in my life.  I was trying to remember that quote, “My serenity is inversely proportional to my expectations. The higher my expectations of other people are, the lower is my serenity.”  Alcoholics Anonymous, p. 417.  My serenity was sure low until I looked across the river from the path I was on and saw this:

triangle1           Can you see it?

Gratitude Lily

April 22, 2015 10:53 am


Gratitude is:  Lilies on my kitchen table, my puppy playing in the green grass, and the warm cup of coffee in my hand.

Today is Earth Day.  It is also my mom’s and one of my closest friend’s birthday!  I am grateful to be able to remember them and to be a kind, loving daughter and friend.

Lily                                   What are you grateful for this morning?


April 15, 2015 12:04 pm

Can you remember the first tasks you completed in very early sobriety?


Mine was collating papers…. Today in my recovery that does not seem like such a huge task, but in early sobriety it was monumental! I literally had not completed anything productive for what seemed like years – including my Doctoral Dissertation!

I was fortunate enough to be of service at the Monterey County Central Office. It was there that I collated, stapled, folded, labeled, and stamped hundreds possibly THOUSANDS of newsletters. At the time I did not realize that this was one of the first steps to helping me feel like I could accomplish something, thus helping to increase my self-esteem.

Through the years I have accomplished many projects, but my mind always remembers those stacks of papers waiting to be collated.


‘Inside The Light’

April 1, 2015 1:40 pm

roundAnonymity by Merrian-Webster definition is the quality or state of being unknown to most people: the quality or state of being anonymous.

Can you remember sitting in your early meetings hoping, praying that you would not be given the 12-Traditions reading where you might have to read the word A-N-O-N-Y-M-I-T-Y? I sure do! Heck, I can’t even spell it without spell check and even then, I sometimes get it wrong!

It was 12 years ago this week that I attended my first meeting at Beacon HouseSM. It was my second meeting that day. The only thing I could think of was “please don’t call on me to speak” and “I wonder how I get a job at this place”.

I was not called on to speak and as far as the job went – I was told to stop shaking, go to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps and to come back in a year and THEN ask for a job.

That is what I did! I got the job – weekend Relief Staff which meant hanging with residents and making binders! Looking back, I believe that was one of the best jobs I have ever had.

This will be an anonymous blog of my experience, strength, and hope before and throughout recovery, working “Inside The Light” of Beacon HouseSM, and of the life that has emerged as a direct result of following suggestions, and by grace.