CoastingAugust 13, 2014 12:08 pm Leave your thoughts
One thing that I learned during my early sobriety was to be completely honest with myself and with others.
I think that it was one of the hardest things for me to do way back then. Maybe because I knew that there were physical effects that I could see when it came to my drinking. I didn’t know that there were these other things that I couldn’t see that were just as looming as my drinking.
Lately, I have been really busy with my work. Pretty much all of my time has been dedicated to it. I have been coasting with my recovery life. The life that is supposed to be the most important thing in my life. I am going to be honest with everyone… I went to my first meeting in almost 5 months last week. I have not been talking to alcoholics like I should be.. and I have not been doing what I need to do.
Thus is the ebb and flow of my recovery sometimes. There is a path in front of me that is lit very well. I know what I need to be doing and I know where I want to be.
In my heart I know that I am not going to drink or use… but at the same time I have seen this happen to people time and time again. I will see that they stop going to meetings and stop talking to people… and they go out. Thoughts that would have never entered their mind all of a sudden sound like a good idea.
Thanks goodness that I have an amazing group of people that worry about me and care about me. Thank goodness that I have this blog to write because it makes me aware of the things that I need to be doing.
Things are not all sunshine and rainbows in recovery and I know that. Those are the stories that I most relate to when I hear people’s shares in a meeting. No doubt that my life has become more then my wildest dreams could have ever imagined. I travel all over the country for my work and I would have never have left my neighborhood when I was drinking. I owe everything to this program and to my recovery.
I just wanted to be honest with you all. I love you and appreciate you.
I am on top of it.